Poem

"Life,Oh I Give Up"

What is this?
I am restless, I don't know why
But, I feel no interest, just force a smile upon
What is this?
I see no color, but I am not blind
Oh, I see, the world is black
No love, no affection
What is this?
This emptiness I never felt before,or
I did but chose to ignore
And live a life of mere glass that can shatter
Shatter at the slightest touch
What is this?
I am breathless, as if someone is following me
Or is it that I want to catch someone
How do people smile so easily? Live so freely
Will they answer me? If I ask
The reason for life to be bestowed upon us
What is this?
I feel alone,separated,anxious
I am scared, I want to live
No perhaps I don't
No matter where I search, whom I ask
They give no reply
What is this?
I am eager, I want someone to share my feelings with
I searched here and there, tried to open up to many
But ended up hurt
What is this?
Ah! I see, perhaps end
Searching for someone I came across this question
Why is life bestowed upon us?
I am alone... I want someone
I call out will all my might,but no one listens
I am tired...
What is this?
In the end I give ul
That someone I want to share my feelings, myself with
Is no where
Oh! I give up
I am really afraid... Scared...
What is this?
I am alone, in this darkness days pass
But no one comes
Please come... Someone...
I want to open up... Share
I can no longer live alone
Why...
Why is life in the first place?
I don't want jealousy to devourer me
Please, I am alone...
What is this?
I feel attracted to someone or
Perhaps I am forcing myself to be attracted
Wanting to live on imaginary lies
Yes, lies... All are lies
Where I can find someone to open up
If there is I wish to die
Oh! God forgive me
But I can no longer
Handle these injuries, pain, and suffering
Not anymore
I am gradually giving up
On the believe on the very existence of happiness
But, please, if my angel exist let my voice
My hearts reaches you and find me
Before I am devoured by this darkness
Before I'm gone, forever ...